4 weeks 6 days to go!

From the title of this blog I am sure you all can guess that I am starting the countdown! I am soooo ready to have this baby! It has been hot and miserable for the last few weeks and I am growing more uncomfortable by the day. On the plus side of things, it seems that Eric is starting to accept things a little bit more and he is doing exceptionally well with me. He is still struggling with growing up a little bit, but I think that once Joshua is born he will man up and be there for us. I am grateful now more then ever for my mom and dad, who have been supporting me since I quit my job in december and haven't been able to find one.
Things around here a little stressful lately, Tiel and her husband and the kids just moved back in and at times I feel like I am being taken advantage of when it comes to watching thier children, sometimes it seems like they expect me to instead of asking. It is getting a little bit better tho.
Well I don't really know what else to say right now, but here is an update for you all. Love you!

it's been awhile,

I know I know I haven't posted a blog in a long time, just been unsure what to say, nothing new really. I a still not working, still pregnant (lol) ready for it to be OVER! I did finally get on medicaid and food stamps so that will be helpful. Other then that I have just been hanging out with friends and working on the house, or sleeping lol. Sorry I don't really have much else to say. I will post more when I have a clear head! Love you all!

Name!

So this is gonna be short and sweet because I am kind of rushing so I will try and post more later but we have FINALLY decided on a name! Joshua David Jansma! I am very excited because it's I picked it out hehehe, but Eric really liked it too. So for now that is all you get I will write more soon, promise! Love you all!

One for my cousin

I want to use this blog to express my gratitude for a wonderful woman in my life...my cousin Nan.

As you all know I am pregnant and have been having some issues trying to decide what to do with my life lately. One woman who has been there for me through this whole process has been Nan, she has been there for me as a huge support and I can't even come close to expressing how much it means to me to have her there as a voice of experience.

Unfortunately due to difference in age and locations our whole life, I never got the chance to establish a real relationship with my Glover cousins which I have always wished to have, but over the last few months my relationship with Nan has grown and become wonderful, I know I can call on her for any need I may have and she has become a close friend and confidant.

When I first found out I was pregnant, I was unsure of what I wanted to do with my baby, I had all sorts of questions running through my mind. Should Eric and I get married? Should I try and single parent? Should I give my baby up for adoption? While I was struggling with all of these should's, my mom suggested that I call up my cousin Nan, who placed a baby when she was 19, I called her and ever since she has been a wonderful resource for me. She has never once told me what I should or shouldn't do, just there to listen and give her opinion when asked.

So Nan, this one is for you. You have been so wonderful to me through this most difficult time in my life, and I am grateful for the opportunity to develop a relationship, and bond with you. Thank you for being a wonderful support network, I look forward to continuing to build a relationship with you. I love you.

In another topic, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! To all the wonderful moms in my life! I love you all!

Sara D.

I'm back

So after many weeks of blog sloth, and writers block, I figured it was probably time for an update.
I had an ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and found out I am having a little boy, and I am due September 17th. I am really starting to feel him moving around in there and at first it was a little bit weird, now it's kind of cool, unless I am trying to sleep of course.
Lately Eric has started manning up a little bit more and being more involved with the whole pregnancy process. He's also been acting more like a boyfriend then a friend lately too (although we are still not together, I can see things moving in that direction eventually.) Another thing about him is that he has been super attentive recently, he calls me almost every day to see how I am doing and ask if I need anything, he comes by a couple times a week to just chill and hang out, all in all things are progressing really well with him and I am genuinely happy right now. I am not 100% ready to be dating him again, but as long as he continues down the path he's on, I can see it happening in the not too distant future!
In other news I am still struggling to find a job, the economy blows right now and it's really showing. I am so frustrated with just sitting at home all the time, I need to be able to get out there and blow off some steam soon!
Well that is really all I have to say for now
Sara D.

Changes...

Okay so I know that my earlier blog I said some pretty angry things about Eric, and that was how I was feeling at the moment, I really don't hate him (at least not all the time lol). We met up tonight and talked a little bit about how I am doing, he really seems to actually genuinely care about my well being (most of the time), I know that I have to be patient with him, and that he will come around eventually, but sometimes it's just so frustrating to be pregnant and hormonal, and dealing with him being hormonal and crazy, if that makes sense to anyone. He is a very nice guy when he wants to be, but he is a 22 year old guy, who doesn't know what he wants from life let alone, what he should do for a child's well being. I am at the stage of my pregnancy were you can feel the little appendages of the baby inside me, so while we were hanging out I put Eric's hand on my stomach and pushed his fingers in so he could feel it, he kinda grinned and then started rubbing my belly, it was pretty cute. I don't really know what to think about him somedays...he's wonderful and attentive and caring, others... the boy drives me bonkers! I think that taking a break here and there though is really what we both need, so neither one of us is driving the other insane. In other news Tiel is due anytime now and we are all so excited for this new addition, Bridget Janae. It's just so hard to believe that Annicka isn't going to be the "baby" anymore, but she seems to be adapting pretty well already, she walks around the house saying "Bidget, Bidget" it's so cute, and if you ask her where Bridget is, she'll walk over to Tiel and lift her shirt up and kiss her belly, it's so sweet. Annicka has such a wonderful little personality I have never met a 2 year old with so much spunk! She is really a blessing and I adore all the time I get to spend with her. Well that is really all I have to say for now, will post more soon.
Lot's of Love,
Sara D.

Stole this from my friend Sammie, thought you all would get a kick

This is to all of you that may be a Mormon,
that may know a Mormon,
that may live in Utah ,
that may have lived in Utah
or have heard about Mormons.

If all your dishes have your name written on them with masking tape...
You might be a Mormon.

If you postdate your checks while shopping on Sunday...
You might be a Mormon.

If you believe Heck is the place for people who do not believe in gosh...
You might be a Mormon.

If your Mom was pregnant at your sister's wedding reception...
You might be a Mormon.

If you pray that your food might "nourish and strengthen your body" before eating doughnuts...
You might be a Mormon

If you think Jell-O is one of the basic food groups...
You might be a Mormon

If at least one of your salad bowls is at a neighbor's house...
You might be a Mormon.

If you've ever written a "Dear-John" to more than two missionaries on the same day....
You might be a Mormon.

If you were frustrated when your son "only" got accepted to Harvard...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have one kid in diapers and one on a mission...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have never arrived at a meeting on time...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have more wheat stored in your basement than most third world countries...
You might be a Mormon.

If you've already got your order in for volume 50 of "The Work and The Glory"...
You might be a Mormon.

If you think it is all right to watch football on Sundays as long as a direct descendant of Brigham Young is playing...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have to guess more than five times the name of the child you're disciplining...
You might be Mormon. (that is so you mom!!!)

If you automatically assume that BYOB means, Bring Your Own Burgers...
You might be Mormon.

If you go to a party and someone spikes the punch with Pepsi...
You might be a Mormon.

If you arrive to an activity an hour late and are the first person there...
You might be a Mormon.

They cracked me up,
Sara