Name!

So this is gonna be short and sweet because I am kind of rushing so I will try and post more later but we have FINALLY decided on a name! Joshua David Jansma! I am very excited because it's I picked it out hehehe, but Eric really liked it too. So for now that is all you get I will write more soon, promise! Love you all!

One for my cousin

I want to use this blog to express my gratitude for a wonderful woman in my life...my cousin Nan.

As you all know I am pregnant and have been having some issues trying to decide what to do with my life lately. One woman who has been there for me through this whole process has been Nan, she has been there for me as a huge support and I can't even come close to expressing how much it means to me to have her there as a voice of experience.

Unfortunately due to difference in age and locations our whole life, I never got the chance to establish a real relationship with my Glover cousins which I have always wished to have, but over the last few months my relationship with Nan has grown and become wonderful, I know I can call on her for any need I may have and she has become a close friend and confidant.

When I first found out I was pregnant, I was unsure of what I wanted to do with my baby, I had all sorts of questions running through my mind. Should Eric and I get married? Should I try and single parent? Should I give my baby up for adoption? While I was struggling with all of these should's, my mom suggested that I call up my cousin Nan, who placed a baby when she was 19, I called her and ever since she has been a wonderful resource for me. She has never once told me what I should or shouldn't do, just there to listen and give her opinion when asked.

So Nan, this one is for you. You have been so wonderful to me through this most difficult time in my life, and I am grateful for the opportunity to develop a relationship, and bond with you. Thank you for being a wonderful support network, I look forward to continuing to build a relationship with you. I love you.

In another topic, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! To all the wonderful moms in my life! I love you all!

Sara D.

I'm back

So after many weeks of blog sloth, and writers block, I figured it was probably time for an update.
I had an ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and found out I am having a little boy, and I am due September 17th. I am really starting to feel him moving around in there and at first it was a little bit weird, now it's kind of cool, unless I am trying to sleep of course.
Lately Eric has started manning up a little bit more and being more involved with the whole pregnancy process. He's also been acting more like a boyfriend then a friend lately too (although we are still not together, I can see things moving in that direction eventually.) Another thing about him is that he has been super attentive recently, he calls me almost every day to see how I am doing and ask if I need anything, he comes by a couple times a week to just chill and hang out, all in all things are progressing really well with him and I am genuinely happy right now. I am not 100% ready to be dating him again, but as long as he continues down the path he's on, I can see it happening in the not too distant future!
In other news I am still struggling to find a job, the economy blows right now and it's really showing. I am so frustrated with just sitting at home all the time, I need to be able to get out there and blow off some steam soon!
Well that is really all I have to say for now
Sara D.

Changes...

Okay so I know that my earlier blog I said some pretty angry things about Eric, and that was how I was feeling at the moment, I really don't hate him (at least not all the time lol). We met up tonight and talked a little bit about how I am doing, he really seems to actually genuinely care about my well being (most of the time), I know that I have to be patient with him, and that he will come around eventually, but sometimes it's just so frustrating to be pregnant and hormonal, and dealing with him being hormonal and crazy, if that makes sense to anyone. He is a very nice guy when he wants to be, but he is a 22 year old guy, who doesn't know what he wants from life let alone, what he should do for a child's well being. I am at the stage of my pregnancy were you can feel the little appendages of the baby inside me, so while we were hanging out I put Eric's hand on my stomach and pushed his fingers in so he could feel it, he kinda grinned and then started rubbing my belly, it was pretty cute. I don't really know what to think about him somedays...he's wonderful and attentive and caring, others... the boy drives me bonkers! I think that taking a break here and there though is really what we both need, so neither one of us is driving the other insane. In other news Tiel is due anytime now and we are all so excited for this new addition, Bridget Janae. It's just so hard to believe that Annicka isn't going to be the "baby" anymore, but she seems to be adapting pretty well already, she walks around the house saying "Bidget, Bidget" it's so cute, and if you ask her where Bridget is, she'll walk over to Tiel and lift her shirt up and kiss her belly, it's so sweet. Annicka has such a wonderful little personality I have never met a 2 year old with so much spunk! She is really a blessing and I adore all the time I get to spend with her. Well that is really all I have to say for now, will post more soon.
Lot's of Love,
Sara D.

Stole this from my friend Sammie, thought you all would get a kick

This is to all of you that may be a Mormon,
that may know a Mormon,
that may live in Utah ,
that may have lived in Utah
or have heard about Mormons.

If all your dishes have your name written on them with masking tape...
You might be a Mormon.

If you postdate your checks while shopping on Sunday...
You might be a Mormon.

If you believe Heck is the place for people who do not believe in gosh...
You might be a Mormon.

If your Mom was pregnant at your sister's wedding reception...
You might be a Mormon.

If you pray that your food might "nourish and strengthen your body" before eating doughnuts...
You might be a Mormon

If you think Jell-O is one of the basic food groups...
You might be a Mormon

If at least one of your salad bowls is at a neighbor's house...
You might be a Mormon.

If you've ever written a "Dear-John" to more than two missionaries on the same day....
You might be a Mormon.

If you were frustrated when your son "only" got accepted to Harvard...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have one kid in diapers and one on a mission...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have never arrived at a meeting on time...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have more wheat stored in your basement than most third world countries...
You might be a Mormon.

If you've already got your order in for volume 50 of "The Work and The Glory"...
You might be a Mormon.

If you think it is all right to watch football on Sundays as long as a direct descendant of Brigham Young is playing...
You might be a Mormon.

If you have to guess more than five times the name of the child you're disciplining...
You might be Mormon. (that is so you mom!!!)

If you automatically assume that BYOB means, Bring Your Own Burgers...
You might be Mormon.

If you go to a party and someone spikes the punch with Pepsi...
You might be a Mormon.

If you arrive to an activity an hour late and are the first person there...
You might be a Mormon.

They cracked me up,
Sara

Just an update.

So I haven't posted for a few days, so here is an update. I haven't really been doing anything lately, just kinda chillin at home. They Dr has scheduled me an ultrasound for April 8th at 10 in the morning, I should be able to find out what it is! It's pretty exciting, I just wish I could get Eric excited about the little things like I am. I had an appointment last week and got to hear the heartbeat for the first time, I cried it was beautiful, but I was also crying because I so badly wanted Eric there to hear that for the first time and he just doesn't seem to care. I don't know what to do with him anymore. I haven't really been spending that much time with him lately, we used to talk and see each other everyday, because I would call him everyday, I quit calling him, now if he wants to talk he calls me, and that is that. I am done chasing him around like a little puppy dog, if he wants to be part of my life he can get in touch with me. I haven't called him in about 3 weeks, he calls me every other day, or every 2 days, and he comes over maybe once a week. I really could care less at this point in time I have other more important things to worry about. Well that is really all I have for now I will post more soon. Love you all!
Sara

Being random

So I can't sleep, this is becoming quite a regular occurrence and frankly it's driving me nutso. I have always had a touch of insomnia since I can remember and before I got pregnant I took sleep aids so that I could drift off into a wonderful dreamless sleep, now not so much, even Tylenol pm doesn't really do anything but make me lethargic and grumpy lol.
Speaking of dreams, since I got pregnant my dreams have been so frickin weird, I mean we're talking dinosaurs and random adventures with the kids from Harry Potter and Twilight, like crazy weird. I wake up almost every morning thinking "what the heck was that?".
There is a lot going on in my life right now and I am really trying to asses the situation from all angles, I don't know what I want to do right now and it's driving me crazy, and on top of it all Eric is being completely useless right now, the boy is so freaking immature that I can't even stand it. I want to kill him some days, then there are the other days when he calls me up after he gets off work just to tell me he was thinking about me all day, talk about super confusion. I don't know what he want's and until he can figure it out I told him to back off. I care about him deeply and want us to work things out, but I think that he's more concerned with partying all night and sleeping all day. I wish he would wake up and realize that this situation is pretty serious and he's continuously breaking his one promise of making sure I didn't have to do this alone, because at every turn, that's exactly where I find myself...Alone.
Why can't young men understand that there are consequences to all actions, whether they be positive or negative, there are always going to be consequences. I am desperately trying to be patient with him but he's making it increasingly difficult, I understand that this situation is hard on him too, that it's not just hard on me, but he needs to realize how much harder it is to be a young woman in this situation, I mean for crying out loud I have a life growing inside me! How exciting and scary this is, it's really starting to hit me even more now then ever.
In other news, I reapplied at wal-mart and I am hoping to get a call within the week so wish me luck. I am kind of excited to go back, it's my second family out there and I know that they will all work with me so well through all of this.
Anyways that is my rant for the day. Love you all post more soon.
Sara D.